Week 39: Birth day

Date: February 27th, 2007
Waist: 43.5 inches, increased over 17 inches. Will it go back?
Weight: 148 lbs, gained 36 pounds.

I couldn't sleep very well last night because of all the thoughts and worries running through my mind. Mostly I was worried about Finnegan. Last night was the last evening that he would be an only child and the recipient of all our love and attention. I relished every minute that he was curled up in my arms sleeping peacefully.

When he woke up he was so cute with his tossled curly hair and cherubic face. If only children would stay like this a little longer. They grow so fast.

This morning I cried when Doug took him to the Wilson's house to go to school. Finn looked so happy running down the sidewalk with his smiling face and airplane in his hand. He's such a good little boy and already I miss him. I just don't want to spend a night away from him. I've only spent one night away from him when I was in the hospital. I hope he settles in tonight and isn't scared because both Doug and I are gone.

Well, it's almost 8 o'clock and I need to get ready to go to the hospital. I'm a little bit worried about the surgery and of course I hope everything goes well with the baby.
It's exciting to have another baby, but I feel mostly sad right now. I know that I'll feel a lot different when I'm holding my new little boy in my arms.

Doug has been really great these past few days. He's done everything around the house preparing for our month of babydom. He shampooed the carpets downstairs and they look fantastic. He washed clothes, cleaned the whole upstairs, scoured the kitchen, went to the grocery store every day and took care of Finnegan. I was really nice to let go of all those duties and sit for a while.

This is it. The next time I write about the baby, he'll have a name and he will be in our arms.