A little time to myself

I'm feeling better today, I tried to write about my feelings last night, but I was too tired. Numb actually. It was an emotionally draining day.

This morning I dropped Finnegan off at school and then came home to be along. I needed to write about my feelings and have a good cry. I couldn't have a cathatic cry yesterday because Finnegan would not understand what was going on and then he would cry too. I just didn't want to put him through that.

After getting my frustrations out, I felt much better and I discovered that I felt like eating, so I treated myself to lox and bagels which is quite nutritious.
Then I took a long hot shower and felt renewed. Not happier, but in a better frame of mind.

I was off to work and met Rachele at the photography studio. Today, I was able to get some work done and get ready for our big Halloween promotional event at the Mill Creek City Hall which was a great success. I'm not sure home many cards we put out, but it was more that 700. Hopefully it will bring people into the studio for Santa Photos.

When I returned home Spoon was barking his head off and it seemed odd that Grenade's funny crow cawing was not to be heard. I brought Finnegan into the house and laid him onto the bed without disturbing his slumber. Spoon quieted after receiving his treats and a calm settled onto the house.

Without Doug here, the house seems empty. Without Grenade here it seems odd. I keep wanted to give him his pills twice a day and find myself wanting to look for him in all the usual places. But, he's not there.

Some people might think I'm crazy going on like this about a pet, but they probably haven't had my experience. It's good to write these things down
and read them later. It's important to live all of our emotions fully.

If we never suffer sadness, we can never know joy.