January 2005 Archives

Tonight I attended a Seattle Professional Photographers Association
meeting as I was one of the featured speakers. My topic, "Paying it
forward with creative album design." I basically drove home the point
that as photographers we must create beautiful albums for all of our
clients in order to get future clients from our current clients. I
felt really rusty, because I spoke too fast and stumbled a few times.
But to my great surprise everyone said I was very energetic and they
liked my presentation. You never know how people will respond, but
they asked lots of questions and they understood the concepts I was
talking about.

As usual I'm full of energy now because I love to teach and I get
excited when I'm in front of people, it's a performance. It's late and
Doug and Finnegan are asleep and I don't want to disturb them, but it's
nice to be home with them in our little haven. I missed Finnegan while
I was away for 3.5 hours. I never knew how much I would love Finnegan
and how much he would change my life perspective. One of my colleagues
asked me how I like being a mother and I told him that I now realize
how selfish and self-absorbed I was before Finnegan was born. I was a
pretty nice person and everything, but now I'm a much better person. I
appreciate Doug so much more and Finnegan totally depends on me and I
want to take care of his needs before my own. It's a great feeling to
be needed.

When I returned this evening Doug told me that Finnegan was not happy
when he gave him his bottle. He said Finnegan was upset that I was not
there to feed him. My baby loves me. As I peered down at Finnegan for
the first time tonight, he looked at me with his intense little stare
and a huge smile washed over his face and he said, "Oooooh!" I knew
that he missed me and that was his way of saying so. I know this
because we always play a little game of saying, "Ooooh." when I am
changing his diaper and today he replied to my "O's" three times. So,
when his little face lit up and he said "Oopph," I knew that he missed
me. I said, "Ooooh" and kissed him goodnight as he closed his eyes to
go to sleep.

Oooh what a great day.