One month old

Today, Finnegan is one month old and I've been sick all day with a cold
and I'm afraid of giving it to Finn. I'm hoping he'll be spared the
misery of head congestion, scratchy throat, runny nose, coughs and
headaches. He's been fussy for several days and it's sometimes hard to
calm him down, let's hope he just has some tummy troubles due to my
cold.

Despite the aches and pains I'm feeling stronger, but I still worry
about dropping Finn as my body is very weak and I'm not very strong
yet. If I make a sudden move in a direction that my body isn't ready
for, I experience great pain or my knees buckle. Last week, Doug got
up to change Finn and I woke up to feed him, as I walked to the couch I
fell to the floor and it scared me so much. Eventually, I had to crawl
to the couch and Doug brought Finn to me without knowing what had
happened. I worry each time I carry him down the stairs or bend over
to pick him up because I don't know if my legs will hold up. I feel
like I have an old body and it's just not fair.

One of our neighbors told me about baby yoga and I think that it would
be a good thing for me because we can do it together. As long as it
helps me to get stronger and regain my mobility it will be worth it.