Pain, pain go away. Come back another day

I haven't talked much about pain lately. Mostly because I try to block
it from the forefront of my mind. However, I was lucky for a while and
my daily pain eased up during July and August and allowed me to get a
lot of work done, but it's back in full force now.

This morning I got up and was really grouchy due to lack of food and
intense pain radiating down my back and legs. I was instantly mad at
Doug for getting good sleep while I did not. I know that there is pain
associated with pregnancy, but I just can't sleep at night and it makes
be really, really grouchy.

Do you know how hard it is to roll over when you have a big belly? Try
strapping a twenty pound basketball to your stomach and try to roll
over. It's hard and my hips pop when I move at night. I've tried to
sleep on my back, but the baby doesn't like it and he kicks me in the
ribs to roll onto my side. When I attempted this last night I tweaked
my upper back. With 35 days and a wake up to go, I'm getting tired as
my belly gets bigger.

A couple of weeks ago I decided to have a natural childbirth and I even
selected the birthing center last week and met my midwife yesterday. I
know that these choices will give Doug and I a much better birthing
experience than in a hospital, but I'm really going to have to tough it
out in the absence of pain killers. I know I can do it. I keep
reminding myself of all the painful training I did in the Army and I
know that I can bear the pain without drugs because I've done it
before. I'd list them all here, but you would think that I was a woos
for even worrying about childbirth pain.

Guess I'll just take another hot shower and rub my belly for a while
and see if that helps. If only I could have chocolate, I know that
would make me feel better!