Dreams and final details

I woke up this morning after a long stretch of sleep and six trips to
the bathroom. It's funny though, I had all these dreams about doing
things and I wasn't pregnant. So, when I woke up and began to feel the
back pain and body aches settle in, the thought suddenly struck me, "Oh
my gosh, I'm pregnant!"

This has happened to me before over the past few weeks and it's not due
to regret or anything, it's just that I keep dreaming of myself in my
pre-pregnancy body. Now I understand what everyone else has been
telling me about the final weeks of pregnancy and weird dreams. I've
got to finish some more of my wedding photography projects and then I
can send out the email to everyone about being on maternity leave from
my business.

In my dream, I was working on a political campaign and I ran into one
of my old college mates. He kept glancing at me from afar and I was
too busy to go and talk to him. We were working for different
candidates and yet on the same team again. I went about my business
and easily found myself gobbled up into the frenzy of the event and
eventually swept away without being able to talk to him. I'm not quite
sure what the dreams mean, but I think it's just an affirmation of the
transition that I'm going through. Who knows?

Now that my schedule is winding down I keep thinking about my life
prior to 9/11, when I was living the jet-set life. Every few weeks I
was traveling to teach at some photography conference, attending an
Army school in Washington, DC, visiting family or flying to a wedding
in another state. I felt successful and was relishing the freedom that
I had to do these things. However, today travel is the last thing on
my mind, unless Doug wants to go to Italy then I'll pack my bags in a
hurry.
In a couple of weeks, I won't be able to pick up and fly around the
country at a moments notice anymore because my baby will be my top
priority. However, I will have a beautiful baby boy to take care of and
taking him for walks in the park will be all the traveling that I will
want for a while.